Melissa Schreiber’s Bachelor Pad Blog: Episode 2

Dearest Michelle,

There are no words to express how deeply sorry I am for the losses that you have experienced this week.  The circumstances that you have had to deal with were devastating, yet you handled yourself with grace, love and compassion.  Your positive energy and love for life are an inspiration to all who know you.  Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and in my heart during this time of grief.  I love you.



Well, week 2 was definitely not without some serious drama.  Obviously, I want to begin by saying that the “target on your back” competition was not a fun way to start the week.  Erica is absolutely beautiful inside and out.  We all have our insecurities.  Mine is being too skinny.  This has been an issue for me my entire life.  It is hereditary in my family.  My Mom, Sister and I are all the exact height and weight and my Dad is like 5’10, 120 lbs.  So, to say the least, we are a family of stick figures.  It is so hard to be judged by your appearance.  Like I said, Erica is beautiful and the only thing big about her is her heart.  Take away the horrible questions and the actual game was fun.  Once the guys started throwing underhand.

The “Yacht” date was fun.  It was flippin freezing out.  I still can’t believe the guys actually swam in that ice-cold water.  Speaking for a moment about freezing, YES, I was always cold at night in Bachelor Pad.  ALWAYS.  So for everyone who tweeted asking me why I always looked so cold, it’s because I WAS.  Maybe it’s the lack of body fat, and the 40-degree night weather.  The guys were so lucky that they got to wear pants, shirts and jackets.  I would have done anything to have been in warmer clothes.  Clearly, since most of the time, you saw me in someone’s jacket.  As for giving Blake the rose instead of Kasey, well, it wasn’t done behind his back at all, but yet was still the second worst decision that I made on the show.  I think you all know what the first was.

I just want to begin by saying, that, yes I was emotional.  I have always been told that I am far too trusting.  I always give people the benefit of the doubt and trust them blindly as Blake referenced on our date when he said, “Melissa blindly trusts Kasey.” Pretty much the only thing he was accurate about actually in reference to me.  This is my biggest problem, and why I tend to get so emotional so quickly.  Because I trust people so much and then get really hurt when I am betrayed.  No, I am not crazy, or unstable, just emotional.

Now, on to my least favorite topic to speak about, the drama between Blake and myself.  Blake claims that we never discussed a relationship or intimacy.  That we only kissed twice and that if he had any idea that I would develop feelings, he would never have done what he did.  He is being completely dishonest.  I did not develop a crush based on nothing.  Unfortunately, viewers did not get to see even a fraction of how thick Blake laid it on with me.  He absolutely did intend for me to develop feelings.  He was not just playing “the game” as he wants you all to believe.  Hopefully in the weeks to come, you will see a little bit more of how far he went pretending to like me.  Blake stated in his blog, “I do have to say, it was not a proud moment watching myself say things that ended up hurting someone.” Okay, then why on Monday night was Blake still trashing me and calling me names via twitter? Hmm…if Blake was in fact, just playing the game, that would have been fine.  Sucks to be the one hurt by it, but so be it, it’s a game.  But to go on twitter and STILL be hurtful to me simply because I had a crush on him in the house (which he intended on and created by leading me on so hard) and then trash me about it after, is just sick in my opinion.

Now, on to something way more enjoyable to talk about: AMES and his AMAZING “Notebook” style exit.  That man is CLASSY through and through.  For once, I was not the only one in tears.  I think even some crew had tears during that moment.  It was amazing.  My favorite line was from Ella “they are gonna have babies and I’m gonna love it.”  So adorable!

See you all next week.  Maybe I’ll even cry and go “crazy” again, guess you will have to wait and see.  J